In 1986, I wrote a song called “I Am The Moonlight.” I was a brand new musician pouring my heart and soul into learning the electric bass guitar and literally finding my own (singing) voice. And yet, choices I’d already made as a 16-year-old were taking over my world and shaping it in ways I didn’t yet understand. This would all be reflected in the song. And now, forty years later, modern technology has allowed me to take a new look at that song and discern even more about it.

Let’s start at the beginning: In 1984, my best friend encouraged me to attempt astral travel or the idea that a person could leave their physical body and travel to another dimension some call the Astral Plane of Existence. My friend claimed he could do it and though skeptical, I gave him the benefit of the doubt and tried to do it. I never left my body but in my mind’s eye, a door opened that should never have been opened. Though I didn’t know at the time, that figurative door led to what I now understand is the Spirit Realm.

Over the next year, my friend and I had “adventures” in the Astral Plane (which we just called “The Astral”) and became involved with female (sex) demons called succubi (the plural form of succubus) and other inhabitants there. Everything happened in our minds, there were no physical manifestations of these beings in the Physical Realm.

I go into much greater detail about our initial interactions with the Astral Plane in my Christian testimony video, so I’ll put the link for that HERE. Check it out after you finish this article. I think the original version of the song is in that video, too.

During those initial months between the end of 1984 and early 1985, my friend and I got deeper and deeper into our interactions with these beings (demons). We engaged in automatic writing (letting them write text, symbols and more through us) and we actually let them speak through us (to each other, we really didn’t involve other people at all). We had absolutely no clue how dangerous these practices were. We were 15 year old guys, had no romantic or sexual experience, and were the epitome of naive and thrill-seeking. In other words, we were the perfect targets for being ensnared by beings and things we knew very little about.

Then in June of 1985, something shifted. A different female being visited me in a wild, sensual dream. And the next time I visited the Astral Plane, she met me and called me husband. It was surprising, fascinating and compelling. She called herself Juno. Beautiful, seductive, and strong-willed, she offered me everything I thought I wanted in a relationship. She was a near-constant companion, we “spoke” telepathically in my mind, she bolstered my confidence and had unique perspectives on everyday happenings in my life. I fell in love with her, accepting her as my wife and lover. She and I were together for three and a half years from mid-1985 until New Years Eve of 1988.

In late August 1986, I bought my first musical instrument, an electric bass guitar, and amplifier with money I’d earned sacking groceries. I practiced the bass in my room every day and recorded a number of my early instrumental songs on a cassette recorder. Within a few months, I was inspired by Juno to write a song about her, both lyrics and melody, and she encouraged me to play the bass and sing at the same time (something I hadn’t tried yet). I improvised the music based on the lyrical structure. And I let her sing through me. It was still my voice, though the inflections were different. It took a couple of tries but I did record it. The song was called “I Am The Moonlight.”

The lyrics were meant to give dual-meaning from the beginning. In one regard, they seemed to be about the literal effects of moonlight: how it can be comforting, providing the light from the sun at night and being in the sky while most people dream. But the rest of the lyrics were Juno revealing things about herself. And now, forty years later, after putting that original recording through Suno A.I. to finally give its simple melody a fuller sound and a female vocalist, I’ve seen that the lyrics say even more than I thought they did.

It sounds beautiful but that is a deception. When you look at the lyrics from the point of view of a demon who is trying to invade your home and your life, it becomes scary.

Below are the actual lyrics:

I am the moonlight

You see me at night

And I relieve any fears

You have of the darkness

I am undeclared beauty

And undefined mystique

I am the light of the moon

And the pathway to dreams

My power soothes your thoughts

And releases your soul

I comfort you in your journeys

I warn you of the dangers of night

I am elegance

And posterity

I am woman

But not as women

I am unique

I am one

I see what you let me see

If you let me in your home

Through any opening

I am here for you

My light freely given

And nothing asked in return

I am what you make me to be

I am the moonlight

Juno and Lucina I have been called

“She who brings to light”

I am the moonlight

You see me at night

And I relieve any fears

You have of the darkness

Before I get to the song itself, I want to address something. People often ask, “Why would God allow something like this to happen?” They usually say that concerning natural disasters or other tragedies where people die. But they also ask that regarding many other evils that happen in the world. And the answer is always the same: Evil in the world comes from people having free will, choosing to either be misled or choosing/allowing themselves to be driven to do evil things.

In my case, I chose to explore the possibility of “Astral travel.” I could have turned my friend down and walked away. I responded to my own curiosity and that led to exposure to demons. It took me until 2023 to realize that I was literally groomed by demons. That was a devastating reality to accept but it’s true.

But God is greater. He freed me from that life at the end of 1988 (again, the details are in my testimony video), seven years before I accepted His Salvation through Jesus Christ. He rescued me so many times and I didn’t even know it was Him. God pardoned my association with demons and the occult along with all my other sins because I did them in ignorance. And now, I have a powerful testimony. I have seen the Darkness and I chose the Light. I am proud to live for Him now and I see an opportunity to expose the darkness.

Ironically, demons tell you who they are. They just try to sugarcoat it.

So here’s the 2026 version of “I Am The Moonlight”

The “marriage” (though it wasn’t a Holy one) with Juno appealed to my heart’s desire: to be married to a woman I loved and have a family with her. But it was on the devil’s terms (not the same as selling your soul; I didn’t do that) with hidden caveats. The main one was that I knew I couldn’t tell anyone about Juno or they’d think I was crazy. It was the mid-1980s and that stuff wasn’t talked about openly like it is now.

In contrast, my marriage with my wife, Angel, has lasted nearly ten times as long and God granted me my true heart’s desire: a wonderful, beautiful woman who loves me as I am (as I do her) and three incredible children. I tell people about her and our kids all the time. The Lord has granted us peace, love, and joy in spite of how crazy the real world is now.

The demons have influenced so many people to spread witchcraft and occult practices throughout the world, normalizing them in ways I never imagined possible. It’s even in some of the churches. My testimony doesn’t seem outlandish now. People believe it because they either have practiced the occult or know people who do (or watch them on the internet). Celebrities are open witches now.

In my view, all of this points to us living in the end times.

But I often tell people that it is a unique privilege to be chosen by the Lord to live for Him in these days. It is sad to see the state of the world but I pray for the lost and the persecuted Christians and those suffering every day.

Evil is real. But God is Holy and He is just as real. He is Love but He also has a wrath. That is why we need His Salvation — to rescue us from the wrath to come. It’s all in the Bible. Jesus is coming back. Christians need to stand up for Biblical principles and let themselves be led by the Holy Spirit, not the world, not man.

“Seek ye the Lord while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near: Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the Lord, and he will have mercy upon him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon.”



- Isaiah 55: 6-7 (King James Version)